Walking by Faith & The Utter Deadness of Self-Sufficiency

When I shut down my previous certification school - The School of Embodied Healing Systems during the launch of what I thought would be the 3rd round, I knew the Lord wanted to do something new - I just wasn’t totally sure what it was.

Despite the deep knowing in my Spirit that the Lord was leading me in a new direction and a sense that He wanted me to be poured out totally for Him and to completely study His Word and create something new in the industry….

The actual practicalities of it? It felt murky and really unknown territory.

During the time between shutting down The School of Embodied Healing Systems and launching Faithful - there was an intense pruning that took place. 

I would say the number 1 pruning during that time was pruning away self-sufficiency and running business by my own will and way.

Even at the beginning of the Faithful Launch I had my own ideas about what it would be and the Lord totally rearranged that from the pricing to the curriculum.

But before the launch I went through some pretty intense times with the Lord.

He took me to a place within me that carried a deep darkness, an addiction to the things of the flesh (power, materialism, worldly wisdom etc)  that created sabotage patterns and he took me to the heart of toxic shame.

He gave me new Spiritual insight into a lot of the abuse I experienced as a child and showed me that the Enemy was trying to destroy my spirit through the terror of abuse. He showed me that the enemy sought to take my life - but He was unable to because the Lord preserved me through His Word and by the power of His Spirit.

He unearthed many of the deep spiritual places within me of which I was “blissfully” unaware before my salvation.

It was the beginning of my learning of truly what it meant to Live and Walk in the Spirit, By Faith.

I clung to the cross deeply during that time.

My prayer during the first year of my salvation was this:  “Establish me in You, Lord”
“Teach me” “Teach me to live by your word and walk with me”. 

I had suddenly realized how wrong and foolish I had been - how dead I had been spiritually and I was thrown into the heart of repentance and longing for the washing of the Word. Freshly out of the NEw Age deception and deeply aware of my Spiritual brokenness and the ramifications of my wandering.

He gave me a Scripture in Jeremiah 3:14 - 15 at the beginning of my salvation:

Return, O faithless children, declares the Lord;   for I am your master;
I will take you, one from a city and two from a family, and I will bring you to Zion.
“‘And I will give you shepherds after my own heart, who will feed you with knowledge and understanding.”

The Lord did give me Shepherds after His heart to feed me with knowledge and understanding.

My Pastors as well as another incredible Pastor in my city whose Bible knowledge fed my Spirit and nourished me. I had been so hungry for truth that I found His Bible study in the basement of a local church. I walked into the fluorescent lighting and ugly tables and I might as well have been in the most luxurious heavenly place because He started teaching the Word with heavenly insight and the tested faith of a true man of God who had walked with the Lord life-long.

That first year in some ways was the lightest year of my life and in some ways felt like a slog. There was a heaviness to it. And I just kept praying and seeking the Lord - I knew there was baggage from my time away from God and that there was a disciplining and sanctifying taking place and I needed to stay the course.

I kept praying “Establish me o God - Establish me in Your Word - teach me to walk in your ways” 

And He kept doing so.

By the time I surrendered my business to the Lord He had already done a quick and mighty work in my heart. 

Miracle after miracle. 

The final piece of my old life that came breaking off me was the Somatic Experiencing piece - when I canceled my flights and train rides days before I was meant to go out to Halifax and complete the final advanced training to become a Somatic Experiencing Practitioner.

There were things about my character that the Lord shaped that year.

But He also used it to show me HIS character - that He was good. He purged the legalistic religious programming of my childhood. He healed places in my heart that had been hidden from me. He reignited and awakened His Word within me that I was blind to while I was away from Him. He taught me to trust the body of Christ and used my Pastors and their life of faith and Godliness to restore my love for the church. He purged unforgiveness from me. He healed the insidious New Age ways of thinking from mind and renewed it by the power of His Word.

And leading up to launching the Faithful Institute - He showed me a deep insight about what it means to obey His voice in spite of negative feelings about myself. I thought myself very inadequate (I am) to lead the Faithful Institute. “I have theological understanding and knowledge from my first 20 years of life walking with God and in His Word - but I am still Spiritually a babe in Him” I thought. How can He ask this of me?

I hadn’t yet realized that His grace is perfected in my weakness.

I hadn’t yet realized that my inadequacy is canceled out by the Gospel - the sacrifice of Jesus is the grounds by which I am confident - not in myself.

When God calls you to do something for Him - what you do is take the next step. And by taking the next step - He prepares you for the next. He will purge what needs to be purged, give what needs to be given, and repair what needs to be repaired.

Because it’s in, by and through HIM so that He receives all the glory. 

Something that was new to me coming from a mindset of SELF.

The Scriptures say in Hebrews that BY FAITH Abraham went out from his homeland in obedience to the Lord WITHOUT KNOWING where He was going.

By faith Abraham obeyed when he was called to go out to a place that he was to receive as an inheritance. And he went out, not knowing where he was going. - Hebrews 11:8

When we move by faith into the unknown - God is then able to do all that needs to be done in us - because we are free of our self-sufficiency (which is fake anyway). We move into a place of full dependence and trust in the Lord and in that place He sanctifies, He works miracles, He heals and does what must be done within us.

And then - He gets the glory and we feel free and fully alive in the Spirit. Rather than self-sufficient and dead in prideful success that offers nothing for the soul.

PS…
This is the final week to join the Faithful Institute - to apply, your application call needs to be booked by January 12th.

The Lord is doing something NEW inside Faithful. It’s business by faith, It’s life in the Spirit, it’s deep healing and personal transformation. It’s spiritual equipping to move forward even when it’s scary and murky and you don’t exactly know what is next.

It is the gifts and the calling of the Lord that He has put on you being honed and brought forward so that you can build Your business on God as your firm foundation and by faith rather than by your own thinking and self-sufficiency.

I can assure you that there is no other certification program like this - combining nervous system science and neuroplastic coaching with an unapologetically Biblical Worldview and Business Building.

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