‍Life force energy, survival energy, repression, raw expression! ‍

Most people are repressed. It’s just the truth.

Most people are terrified of the absolute full force of their life energy.

Especially if you’ve spent a life time being pushed back, held back and then doing it to yourself on repeat without even knowing it.

It’s not your fault.

Other people are scared of your life energy too.

So there’s another reason to mask and repress it and suppress it until your bones ache and you’re so bored with yourself that you wanna self sabotage to at least feel alive in the chaos.

The only problem? The more you repress the more you self-destruct.

The body wasn’t designed for that.

It was designed for expression - it was designed for flow. The body is an electrical conductor that carries energy to your organs, your DNA, your brain stem and every cell in your body.

This is trauma - the survival energy pent up and stored in your body that keeps your from...

.What about receiving? 

…being carried, guided and supported by the flow, by God who is life itself.

To receive, you open your hands
Open your heart…

Versus?

Versus chasing after everything from your mind and your tight shoulders.

You don’t receive from working hard in your brain.

Braced up for impact all the while. Desiring more in your heart of hearts and at the same time thinking hard about how to get it.

Receiving is the deep down breath into the tummy and down into the ground.

Receiving is the letting go through the body and the full experience of surrender…

My journey with receiving has been quite the roller coaster.

Because letting go wasn’t something that came naturally to me…

My biology was wired for holding so tight and tighter and tighter and tighter until it hurt like hell and then holding on some more. Abuse and neglect will do that to a person.

First with relationships - then with money.

I chased after my parents love.
I twisted and...