And this one feels hard to write.
This month I was scheduled to go to my Advanced Somatic Experiencing Training (SE Advanced 2) in Halifax.
The hotel was booked.
The flight. The train.
All set to go.
The final culmination of three years of time and investment, relationship building with beautiful colleagues.
Somatic work has been a pillar in my life for at least 7 years of a 14 year plus healing journey.
I began my SE training already having read and studied the topic intensively for years. Having worked with SE practitioners.
I believed Somatic Experiencing to be the “missing piece” in my life and in the world of personal development.
Through my sanctification process I left behind everything else. The Lord opened my eyes a few months after my salvation in the middle of the night to the spiritual dangers of what I was practicing with the I Ching, Human Design and Gene Keys, Spiritual Kinesiology. I also...
Anger is such an important part of health!
Yes - health.
Without the full spectrum of full human emotions - we are not physically healthy. Our Creator designed our emotional and physical experience to be connected to one another.
So - what happens when we repress? What happens when we grow up in homes and environments where the family pushes back or stifles our valid and honest emotional expression?
Emotional Dysregulation, Chronic Illness, High-Functioning Depression & Anxiety Symptoms, and Dysfunctional relationships, Toxic Shame to name just a few.
What can also happen is a confusing relationship with God where we feel afraid to express ourselves to Him - to wrestle with Him, to pour out our hearts before him.
We can more easily get into abusive relationship dynamics and unhealthy spiritual communities because we are less likely to speak up, express needs, set boundaries and advocate for what is right.
When I work with...
PRAYERS FOR YOUR TRAUMA HEALING JOURNEY -PART 1
One prayer I often pray is: “Father - make the crooked places straight in my heart”
I get this prayer from the metaphor often found in Scripture of “preparing the way of the Lord”
In the Old Covenant before Jesus came, Prophets would proclaim His coming and they would declare that One was coming who would make things right with humanity. Who would “level the playing field” against sin, corruption and evil.
One who would heal and restore and repair. One who would light the way both in the world and in our hearts.
I love this metaphor because it is so profoundly true in the context of trauma.
Sin & Trauma creates so much confusion, dysregulation and disruption in our hearts and minds.
As a result, we can see things from distorted lenses.
What is safe seems unsafe & what is unsafe can seem safe.
We can be reactive or easily shut-down as a result of our nervous system’s sensitivity.
Everyone say it with me: Co-Regulation leads to self-regulation!
This is a key concept for understanding trauma healing at the nervous system level because it teaches us how we can access neuroplasticity with support from other people who have regulated nervous systems.
In this episode, I talk about
Scriptures mentioned in the episode:
Learning to Trust the Lord
The thing God has been dealing with me most about since I gave my life to Christ last year has been trust.
Trust is a scary dirty word for a lot of us.
Add in a childhood wrought with abuse and neglect or any kind of relational or spiritual trauma for that matter and you compound on the challenge.
In my years of personal trauma recovery, nervous system repair, and formal training - I’ve learned and experienced a lot about the body and trust.
About how the nervous system can be wired for a kind of closed off hyper-independence in which we construct a life where we protect ourselves from the need to trust others for anything.
How the nervous system can learn to be drawn to (and even cling to) what is unsafe in relationships and deeply untrustworthy.
How we can be so cut off from our God-given intuition that we can’t even FEEL the instincts let alone discern and trust them.
How we can feel terrified to trust that which is actually...
So I woke up this morning brimming with gratitude for the integration and activation that's happening within me.
And I am just thinking about all the amazing people that have been divinely put on my path that planted seeds in my spirit.
And I had an overwhelming desire to share it all.
Well this is easily the most vulnerable - and longest live stream I have ever done.
This is the replay of the original stream on INSTA.
It's about what I’m going through and the people that brought me here…
Wow I was not expecting this to go on as long as it did - but it did!
And I was not expecting to be brought to tears - okay maybe I was lol! But not that much…
I share what I’m moving through and integrating and what is coming through me. I also share some of the key people along the way that have made such a difference in my life. Not all the key people of course but the ones that came to mind.
I talked about the deep feelings of self-disgust and self-loathing that kept me...
Life force energy, survival energy, repression, raw expression!
Most people are repressed. It’s just the truth.
Most people are terrified of the absolute full force of their life energy.
Especially if you’ve spent a life time being pushed back, held back and then doing it to yourself on repeat without even knowing it.
It’s not your fault.
Other people are scared of your life energy too.
So there’s another reason to mask and repress it and suppress it until your bones ache and you’re so bored with yourself that you wanna self sabotage to at least feel alive in the chaos.
The only problem? The more you repress the more you self-destruct.
The body wasn’t designed for that.
It was designed for expression - it was designed for flow. The body is an electrical conductor that carries energy to your organs, your DNA, your brain stem and every cell in your body.
This is trauma - the survival energy pent up and stored in your body that keeps your from...
Buckle up for this conversation with a few of the most recent Embodied Healing Systems Graduates: Andrea Fleming, Denita Bremer & Amber Taylor.
Honestly the caliber of practitioners inside EHS is second to none and this conversation is a taste of the kind of work we do on the regular inside the School.
After all - this is a school for the deeper, smarter, more switched on practitioners.
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